Being Stuck!

Yesterday I waisted a pretty huge chunk of hours doing not much of anything. I did create a makeup look and get a good 50 selfies in for the day. And if you didn't know, my main focus right now is with makeup, I play around with makeup whenever I can. It's almost like I am obsessed, but when I'm doing it I understand what it means to me. Normally I spend hours each day just playing with makeup or recording videos. Yesterday was different though because I didn't know what to do. Each day I get this list of different things I want try whether it is some kind of craft, or makeup look I always know what I'm going to spend the day doing. My brain is stuck, its like it has literally been drained of all its creative juices. I don't plan what I am going to do for the day, but I do always have a list in the back of my head of what I want to do. Most days I do procrastinate that list, but when I don't I can get five different projects done in that one day. It's really strange not having some kind of plan, its even worse when I am limited to the tings I can do. I mean I have literally been so stuck these past couple of days that I have actually almost convinced myself to clean my dad's room and reorganize everything! Now thinking of it, it wouldn't be a bad idea I can maybe get on his good side. I think the real problem is that I haven't been able to post any YouTube videos for the past month. I started making those videos because I wanted to occupy myself and have something I could commit to and actually care about. Ever since my laptop completely gave up on me I haven't been able to do anything that involves my videos. I think what I really need is just some time to myself to reflect and think of what it is that I really want. And just give  myself that chance to find some inspiration to put meaning to everything. Wish me luck! -With Hope, Sierra